Sorry For The Mess Leftovers
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A lot of people think that having writer’s block means you can’t put pen to paper.
Although this may be the case for some, it was actually the opposite for me. While trying to assemble Sorry For The Mess, I wrote more lyrics for the project than I’d done for anything prior. The only problem was that I couldn’t commit to any of it: I’d start something, become dissatisfied, end up with a paralysis of choice and then move on to something else.
It led to a huge pile of lyrics, further compounding my inability to make critical decisions about them. As a result, this was inadvertently my most prolific period of writing to that point… even if it lasted about two years in the end.
With hindsight, I now realize that some of these are stronger than what I used on the original version of Sorry For The Mess. Either way, it’s a small sampling of what didn’t make the cut. I’ll be sharing a lot more in the Fireteddy National Library, so keep an eye (or ear) out over there.
Lyrics Content
01. Break Away
04. Save Yourself
05. Midnight Skies
06. Moving In
Break Away
I’m tired and weary
I’m tired of everything now
It’s so endearing
I’m losing everything somehow
A chain reaction
These chains are tightly gripped
I’m losing traction
I came here unequipped
The elevation rises once again
And it’s all the same, no one to blame
There’s nothing, nothing
I’m sick and lonely
I’m looking for a trail to mark
Now I’m the phoney
No arrows through this heart
Maybe wait inside
Until it slowly dies
The elevation rises once again
And it’s all the same, no one to blame
There’s nothing, nothing
I can see hope slip away
It’s falling further everyday
To come in turn with our decay
Maybe I’ll just break away
Leave these things
Leave them far behind
So that I can find some peace of mind
It never was, it was never mine, I know
The elevation rises once again
And it’s all the same, no one to blame
There’s nothing, nothing
Nothing, nothing…
Story Of Our Days
Every night I stay awake
With borrowed time to replicate
I’ll make it back from what it was
Crawling now and that’s because
It never turned out how I planned
Forced consequence and reprimand
It’s book a story of our days
Transcriptions left to waste away
Removal of the cold facts
For an abstract parody
You know it’s in our history
Bending back as it repeats
Switching roles to make it seem
As if the past was just a dream
A nightmare made of beating hearts
Once I found out who you are
Now coming back from what it was
With good intentions left unsung
Removal of the cold facts
For an abstract parody
I don’t think it’s a mystery
With every single casualty
For both these vacant eyes to see
It’s in my dreams
It’s in my dreams
As racing pulses claim defeat
They’ve sheltered what it meant to me
I thought that we were meant to be
It’s in my dreams
It’s in my dreams
End Of The Fairy Tale
The ending’s cloudy in this story book
Some words disjointed as her body shook
With no one daring now to even look
She still took it all in stride
Her face reminded me of porcelain
Soft and pale just like an angel’s skin
But now she’s locked into a tail spin
And it’s sinking in both sides
Still she wonders, still she doesn’t know
But in these stories, there still remains some hope
Still she’s longing, still her heart won’t grow
So now she’s trapped inside a house of mirrors
With nothing else except her bitter tears
They turned this sadness into her career
As her fears began to crawl
They say it’s better to have loved and lost
Those fools don’t know how many lines get crossed
Every good thing seems to have it’s cost
Like a pause for it to fall
Still she wonders, still she tries to wait
Flips through the pages, But the ending’s not replaced
Falls from heaven, she’s falling out of grace
She didn’t know how much she needed this
A thought, a feeling that she never knew she’d miss
Now her eyes are hidden by this veil
So it’s the end of the fairy tale
Still she wonders, still she doesn’t know
But in these stories, there still remains some hope
Still she’s longing, still her heart won’t grow
Still she wonders, still she tries to wait
Flips through the pages, But the ending’s not replaced
Falls from heaven, she’s falling out of grace
I haven’t heard her fairy voice in weeks
It hurts too much and so she barely speaks
Left to wallow in her own defeat
It all happened much too fast
It’s like a story that could never end
The final chapter and it’s all pretend
She has some phrases that she might defend
But the ending’s in the past
Save Yourself
My mind is drawing constant blanks
I’m blacking out in my moment of grace
It’s harder now than it was before
These crafted words have been defaced
While writing lines that make no sense
I’m letting go of all I knew
No retreat, no innocence
Now everything’s been misconstrued
When you fall down, I won’t be waiting
For a tragic girl who just needs saving
Save yourself and leave me out of this one
My heart is full of new false starts
I’m running out in my moment of chance
It’s stranger now than it was before
These silent words have been enhanced
In thinking things I’d say out loud
While holding feelings tightly kept
To pace the floors in noisy crowds
I’m not quite sure I’ve lost it yet
When you fall down, I won’t be waiting
For a tragic girl who just needs saving
Save yourself and leave me out of this one
If you came back, I wouldn’t take you
Despite the fact I still can’t shake you
Save yourself, the time has come to run
As this all festers in our heads
With phrases left to go unsaid
Coming back from where it stood
I wouldn’t change it if I could
Swallow down these bitter pills
Inspiring thoughts to get our fill
Nothing’s wrong until it’s gone again
When you fall down, I won’t be waiting
For a tragic girl who just needs saving
Save yourself and leave me out of this one
If you came back, I wouldn’t take you
Despite the fact I still can’t shake you
Save yourself, the time has come to run
Save yourself, the time has come to run
Midnight Skies
Looking at the ceiling tile
Trying to wait some feelings out
Listening to your thoughts collapse
It seems you’re losing track somehow
All your life you’ve wanted it
You’ve fought so hard to let this in
Looking for excuses now
And then somehow it all begins
Maybe it’s too difficult, maybe it’s a ruse
Maybe it could turn out wrong, maybe you’re confused
Well I don’t know
At least I don’t think so
Staring at the midnight skies
Trapped with thoughts that filter through
Looking back on your release
The future still retreats from you
Maybe it’s too difficult, maybe it’s a ruse
Maybe it could turn out wrong, maybe you’re confused
Well I don’t know
At least I don’t think so
Now midnight skies attach your thoughts
To where we’ve been and what we’re not
All these years spent wondering
When somewhere it’s been thundering
Maybe it’s too difficult, maybe it’s a ruse
Maybe it could turn out wrong, maybe you’re confused
Well I don’t know
At least I don’t think so
Where do we go?
Well I don’t know
Moving In
Moving in, I’ve heard her say
We’re never gonna be that way
Now we are, but that’s alright
It won’t ever be the same
I’ve been trying hard to comprehend
But the thoughts I have will fade again
With this overwhelming bitterness
A thing I can’t explain
It makes me feel nothing
Always nothing
Crying on the phone, she called
Woke me up and then dissolved
She held my hand, it didn’t last
But I guess that it’s alright
Now she feels nothing
Always nothing
We know it’s nothing
Always nothing
Nothing in the way we are
It’s something in the truths we’ll see
The way we patch up all our scars
I guess it’s what we’re meant to be
To make us feel nothing
Always nothing
It makes us feel nothing
Nothing…