I've been on the brink again
Alienated all my friends
They all want to give me help
But I can't even help myself
I know it's wrong and always stay
With every dream a mile away
Drifting through the atmosphere
Thirty years to end up here
Disgusted by the thought of you
I'm disgusted by myself
Reflection in the mirror, it isn't coming clear
But still I disappear
Still I disappear
Rain it trickles down my face
When did I become this way?
I used to be so strong, I thought
And now it has me tied in knots
Ideals that never come to pass
Another three years gone too fast
I'm so afraid to lose my claim
But nothing's ever gonna change
Disgusted by the thought of you
I'm disgusted by myself
Reflection in the mirror, it isn't coming clear
But still I disappear
Still I disappear
They can't recognize me now
I've given in but still somehow
I create my own disgrace
How did I become this way?