The snow slowly crept through the air
As your fingertips gave me a scare
And through all the rustling and noises of bustling
I told you I wasn't prepared
So you laughed and then threatened to leave
All to find that I still had to grieve
I constantly struggled with the feelings you smuggled
On the phone for this one Christmas eve
If I had known anything, I would've said no
If it was anyone else, I'd have said to let go
But the part that escapes me as my thoughts all betray me
Is why I spent so much time on the phone
Why I spent so much time all alone
Adorned all the meaningless
Words that you said were shit
Call out the ambulence
Holding my hands a bit
Patronized lullabies
Put to sleep, ease your mind
Struggled with everything
Lies that I'd never find, fine
But now they're only mine
Now they're only mine
If I had known anything, I would've said no
If it was anyone else, I'd have said to let go
But the part that escapes me as my thoughts all betray me
Is why I spent so much time on the phone
Why I spent so much time all alone
The snow slowly crept through the air
Well it's time to let go but I'm still unprepared
It's time to let go but I'm still unprepared