Respirator

I can't even hear your voice

Machines begin to fill the void

As noises break the spaces in between

Counting down but it's not you

There's only so much we could do

Now misconstrued with thoughts still left unseen

I'm trying to exist, trying harder to resist

But holding on to every sound, it pulls me under as I drown

Now pushing air into your lungs

Until the time has finally come

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator

It takes me hostage in a place

In nightmares that I can't erase

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator keeping pace

Grasping at some shreds of hope

While trying hard to stay afloat

For lifeboats that don't ever seem to come

Sitting in this crowded room

We knew that you'd be leaving soon

In bloom to vacate what's so cumbersome

We're trying to exist, trying harder we insist

But holding on to where we've been, it keeps us lost and powerless

Now pushing air into your lungs

Until the time has finally come

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator

It takes me hostage in a place

In nightmares that I can't erase

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator keeping pace

Call it post-traumatic sound disorder

You can call it what you want

I don't need to call it anything at all

When I'm the one these sounds will haunt

I'm trying to exist, trying harder to resist

But holding on to every sound, it pulls me under as I drown

Now pushing air into your lungs

Until the time has finally come

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator

It takes me hostage in a place

In nightmares that I can't erase

I can hear the respirator

I still hear the respirator keeping pace

I still hear the respirator keeping pace

I still hear the respirator